betterofftodead

i’m lost. i guess i’m facing an adolescent crisis. not knowing what to do in the future, and regretting what i did, or rather, did not, in the past. even though i’m quite similar with my mates in most of the aspects, just that i’m worst, engineering school which i have no interest at all ! i’m not trying to whine or whatsoever. all i can do is blame myself. well, i’m already contemplating what to do after i get my engineering cert, but i seem to have no conclusion.

friends of mine asked me to save up. get a diploma, work, save up and study with my own money and i’ll realize the desire to excel in my pursuit will be stronger, because i do not wish to waste my money. i truly sympathize with him but i don’t have the time.

on a side note, i’m planning to take o’level at CHEC after i complete my engineering course. but what i’m worried is do i have the abilities to do it ? am i capable enough to do it ? will my laziness comes back to hunt me ? will i neglect homeworks like what i did during secondary school days ? once again, can my parents put their trust on me ? i don’t know. if i choose not to take o’level, am i going to be an engineer after my national service ? all i know is i still can further my studies after my stupid engineering course, but like what my mum said, is that really what i want to do in future ? but hey mum, i don’t have much option now, i really don’t. however, the future lies murky. maybe there's a change of plans or a make-over in life at some point ? I don’t know! god, please help me. give me the advice i needed.